Things, are different now... 我会，勇敢的面对一切.

許多的事情，總是在經歷過後才懂得。一如感情，痛過了，才懂得如何保護自己；傻過了，­才懂得如何適時的堅持與放棄，在得到與失去中我們慢慢的認識自己。其實，生活並不需要­這麼些無謂的執著，們有什麼就真的不能割捨。學會放棄，生活就真的容易。

學會放棄，在落淚之前轉身離去，留下簡單的身影；

學會放棄，將昨天埋在心底，留下最美好的回憶；

學會放棄，讓彼此都能有一個更輕鬆的開始，遍體鱗傷得的愛並不一定刻骨銘心。
這一程情深緣淺，走到今天已是不易，輕輕的抽出手，說聲再見，真的很感謝這一路有你。 曾說過愛你的，今天，仍是愛你。只是，愛你，卻不能和你在一起，一如愛那原野，愛它，­卻不能攜它歸去。每一份感情都很美，每一程相伴都令人迷醉。是不能擁有的遺憾讓我們更­感眷戀。感情是一份沒有答案的問卷，苦苦的最尋並不能讓生活更圓滿，也許一點遺憾，一­絲傷感，會讓這份問卷更雋永，也更久遠。 收拾起心情，繼續走吧！錯過花，你將收穫雨；錯過他，我才遇到了你。繼續走吧，你終將­收穫自己的美麗。 一個永遠不想失去你的人，未必是愛你的人，未必對你忠心耿耿。有時只是這種腦袋不清的­強烈的佔有欲者，他們才會做出各種"損人不利己"的事情，還如此理所當然。 在心中如果有"曾經擁有就永遠不要失去"的偏執狂與佔有欲，越想獲得愛的永久保證書，­只會越走越偏離。 誰說喜歡一樣東西就一定要得到它。有時候，有些人，為了得到他喜歡的東西，殫精竭慮，­費盡心機，更甚者會不擇手段，以致走向極端，也許他得到了喜歡的東西，但是在追逐的過­程中，失去的東西也無法計算，付出的代價是其得到的東西所無法彌補的，也許那代價是沉­重的，直到最後才會被發現罷了，其實喜歡一樣東西，並不一定要得到它，有時候為了強求­一樣東西而令自己身心疲憊，是很不划算的，再者，有些東西是"只可遠觀不可近焉"，一­旦你得到了它，日子久了你可能會發現它並不如想像中那般美好，如果你在發現你失去的和­放棄的東西更珍貴的時候，我想你一定會懊悔不已，所以也常有這樣一句話"得不到的永遠­是最好的"，所以當你喜歡一樣東西時，得到它並不是你最明智的選擇。 誰說喜歡一個人就要和他（她）在一起，有時候，有些人，為了能和自己喜歡的人在一起，­他們不惜使用"一哭二鬧三上吊"這種最原始的方法，想以此來挽留愛人的人，但是這並不­能挽留住他的心，更有甚者，為了這而賠上自己那年輕而又燦爛的生命，可能會喚起愛人的­回應吧，但是這給他（她）帶來了更多的自責與內疚，還有不安，從此快樂就會和他（她）­揮手告別。其實喜歡一個人，並不一定要和他（她）在一起的，雖然有人說：不在乎天長地­久，只在乎曾經擁有，但是並不是所有的人都會快樂，喜歡一個人，最重要的是讓他幸福快­樂，因為他的喜怒哀樂都會帶來你的情緒的波動，所以也常有這樣一句話：你快樂，所以我­快樂。 喜歡一樣東西，就要學會欣賞它，珍惜它，使它更彌足珍貴。 喜歡一個人，就要讓他（她）幸福，使那份感情更誠摯，如果你做不到，那你還是放手吧！­所以有時候，有些人，有時候，也要學會放棄，因為放棄也是一種美麗！

Back in KK. I am Home alas.

Merry Christmas everyone! :)

Hope you had a nice one yesterday

For me, my family went to Taiwan and so I'm alone at home.

Well, I'm Terence Tan.

So it's impossible for me to celebrate Christmas nor Christmas Eve alone at home :P

Outing with friends, movies and a lot of follow ups and updates was done.

This trip wasn't as fun though.

Thanks a lot to my Uni and their brilliant time planning,

I have my finals straight after Christmas and New Year.

Wuala! Thanks for spoiling my holidays.

Want to study but the whole world is playing.

Want to play but keep thinking of exam.

That feeling sucks.

Time seriously flies though,

not sure whether to be happy, or to be sad about it.

Sometimes I hope that I can grow up fast,

Earn my own money,

Have my own house,

Build a family with my wife etc.

But then again sometimes,

it just feels good to be young.

You don't have to worry that much!

You can do almost whatever you like :)

When a child made a mistake, it will be just "Oh it's okay. You're still young"

When an adult made a mistake, it will not be just that.

That, is adulthood.

2012 on the way,

And there goes my teen.

Turning 20 soon :'(

ps. Trying my best to focus on studies. Seriously, I tried. But...... hah.

计算着温柔陌生的多少别离
当我思念的心 泛滥的时候
看着你的样子 是你在伤心
揪心的是 我的离开
倔强的以为我真的能改变你
看你装无辜的眼神 我很窒息
难道你没有看见 看见我对你的好
还是你忘了那些数不清的爱情轨迹
你说我傻 傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻 傻在爱他你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻 傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现
你说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
我说你傻 傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿意放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
倔强的以为我真的能改变你
看你装无辜的眼神 我很窒息
难道你没有看见 看见我对你的好
还是你忘了那些数不清的爱情轨迹
你说我傻 傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻 傻在爱他你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻 傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现
你说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
我说你傻 傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿意放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
谁没有为爱做过傻事
继续温习我会 讽刺也无所谓
我说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
你说你傻 傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿意放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现

3 more coursework, 7 days more to home

Back to blogging?

Well I'm back?

hahaha..

Hope so. :/

have some problem with my Facebook

's video recently.

No matter what video, as long as it's posted on Facebook,

it will show video unavailable.

Even when the video is posted by me!

If you have solution for this, DO COMMENT and let me know about it as I'm pretty pissed off with it.

Thanks in advance!

ps. 10 days to home!

I miss home

IU new song!

:)

You & I

Such a nice song!

Keep up the good work!

ps. 12 more days!

海枯石爛 - 電影[真愛挑日子]中文主題曲

這幾天你在那個城市天氣一定晴朗
因為你就是個太陽
有空想念我的話就上線來說晚安
讓夢裡星光燦爛

別再擔心我什麼了 別把我寵壞
只要你平安回來 就夠浪漫

這幾天沒有你在當然有些平淡孤單
但我感謝這孤單
讓我更加確定你是我缺少的那一半
完整我的那一半

不怕明天的世界 會變成怎樣
每天看見你笑臉 我就心安
不管外面的世界 想變成怎樣
我們還有我們的 小小天堂

我有你放在心上 生命就有了重量
風來也不會飄盪
一起看海枯石爛 一起等地老天荒
慢慢愛 不慌不忙

我有你守在身旁 眼睛就可以勇敢
看歲月怎麼漫長
就算真海枯石爛 就算已地老天荒
還相愛 就沒遺憾 (不遺憾)


詞: 施人誠/仔仔(Will Peng)
曲: 仔仔 (Will Peng)
製作人: 仔仔 (Will Peng)


Nice song.

5 assignments on the run @@

ps. 2 more weeks and i'm going home

那些年，我们一起追的女孩

看了这部电影后，

让我回味了那中学时幼稚的我。

时间过得真快。

人生，

真的要好好珍惜啊！

别错过了，

才来后悔。

九把刀，

谢谢你。

人生短短几十年，

现在不好好珍惜，

现在不好好过每一天，

那要等到几时才能真正享受“人生”？

在爱情这道学问，

我真的，不懂得太多。

真正爱你的人，

到底会怎么对待你？

真正爱一个人的时候，

又是得怎么去爱她呢？

我知道，我也了解，

不是每个人的表达方式都是一样的。

她表达得不一定是你要的。

但那颗心，

也因该爱得不少。

人生有时很矛盾，

矛盾得自己也迷失了方向。

或许是天秤座的关系吧。

自己都不了解自己 ，

何况是别人。

该珍惜的，

我珍惜了。

该做的，

都做了。

ps. 痛了

Great song!




without you....

Worst day in October

October is here.

Time flies as usual.

Never even slow down it's pace for us.

Coursework are coming in,

So are stresses.

Sometimes it really made me think,

what exactly is the purpose in life?

To earn money?

Form 3 teacher told me PMR is my base and foundation of my future.

Whether success or not depends on it.

Form 5 teacher told me SPM is my passport to Universities.

Can enter or not depends on it.

Pre U lecturer told me Pre U result is the bridge to Universities.

Whether the Uni accept you or not, depends on it.

Now finally, I reached University.

What else? University is a passport to life.?

then how about when i get life?

Life suckx.

Study hard

Work hard

Die hard

Once upon a time, I thought of being someone successful.

Someone big, rich and well known.

Not anymore.

What I want now, and the thing that I always see in life,

is to find happiness.

Not any other shits.

Sometimes things maybe shitty like how I am now,

but I know things are not that bad for me.

So I made a promise to myself,

Smile, whenever I have the chance to do so.

I hope you will put a smile on your face after every shits too.

谁 改变了我的世界
没有方向
没有日夜
我看着天
这一刻在想你
是否会
对我一样思念
你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前
想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明
你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前
想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明
这是我对你爱的累积

心被打碎，

再加上明天又要回到吉隆坡上学，

心情，超烂。

想到要收拾行李，

累了。

不想多说，

也没什么话可说。

男人不能流泪，

但是心，

流血了。

I'm Coming Home........ in 2 weeks time.

Dear Exam,

Can you please slaughter me fast?

Instead of bit by bit?

It's painful like that and you know it =(

Want to get all this over with and balik kampung.

Despo liao la me!

Aiyoyo...

Subjects for this semester

Hydraulics

Mechanics

Maths 2

Transport Issue

Industry and profession

Engineering Communication

Although 5 subj, but there will only be 5 papers.

Engineering Com is a practical based paper.

Where we have to produce engineering drawings, autoCads drawing and also the final bridge presentation.

Well, exam dates will be from 22-26 sept.

5 freaking day.

at least it's not one freaking month =]

Kuakakaka..

After that will be moving to a new house, of campus.

Parents and family are coming over to kl for raya/school/merdeka hols.

So will only head back to kk by 1st sept.

Come fast fast la 1st sept. Imma waiting for you. Desperately :O!

Cheers to all who are sitting for exams this few weeks.

All the best. ;]

*Just notice I only post when I'm F up.

Greetings August =]

Hey guys. Time flies and it's August now.

Bad news, end of semester soon and hence, more test, more assignments, more due dates, more stress and final exam.

@@

Good news is that there will be a 3 weeks break for me after the finals!!

Haha

And I will be moving to my new unit :D

A banglo~

But renting a room only though. xP

Can't wait to go home seriously. Hang out, Yam cha.

I wanna go beach too! Can only see beaches in Sabah. Kl..................... hard la =(

I miss the sun setting into the sea.

and also the wind breeze along the sea shore.

Walking bare foot on the sands leaving foot prints behind. Argh!

Well, stress as usual for me.

So imma kinda got used to it.

Here are some updates of what i had been doing recently.

Went to Arsenal match,

went to Jogoya,

Went KL explore, Lowyat, sungei wang, times square etc.

Notice how lousy malaysia's public transport is.

And also how scary is the jam and how bad is the air in kl.

Oh! I also bought a new bike =D!

Jogoya

Star Hill Galery

New bike!

Stadium Bukit Jalil

Arsenal!

I definitely miss home as usual ;]

ps. Few more weeks to go~

nice song.. Cant stop listening to it.

=]

Just a short update.

Currently busying with assignments, and test.

ps. Few more weeks. =]

我要回家

I want to go home.

I miss everything.

I miss the life.

I miss my family.

I miss my friends.

I miss her.

KL sucks. ='(

I want to go home and fix everything.

Put everything back to it's original place.

I want to fix every misunderstandings and every scars on your heart.

Hugging you tightly and never let go.

You are my only girl and you will be my only girl.

ps. If only I can master the skills of teleport

The Start of Something New

Hey guys.

New semester, new specs, new looks, new thoughts, new dreams, new aims, same heart.

Due to my special intake, normal people start in September 2010 while me Feb 2011,

I don't have any summer break :O

Instead, I have to stay back the whole summer to sit for my "Summer Semester"

Dang.

They have 4 months till end of September. =(

My next trip home to KK will be from 1st of September till 24th of September.

Sigh.

Am missing home badly ady.

The warmth, the food and oh! the air in KK.

KL suckx.

ps. If only I can teleport

i thought i am safe from april.

i thought i had successfully survived april.

but i was wrong.

april kicked me down hard from a plane.

leaving me floating in the air.

waiting for that moment to come.

i thought everything had just ended.

but i was wrong.

it is just the beginning......

I am not myself lately.

Lost again..

but will never give up and still that strong..

Sigh~

Assignments, test, more assignments, more test.. YAY!

Then no more assignments! Here comes~~~~~ Group Assignment!! @#$%!!!

This is uni life.

Usually, the start of semester, free like soh hai..

Mid of semester, boleh tahan..

End of semester, busy like soh hai..

Exam is around the corner.

And I am not at all prepared.. Don't have the mood to study.. How?

Sitting there looking at my books..

Brain and thoughts, elsewhere!

And guess what?

It's April again! Well, I am not sure whether this happens to others or not..

But for me, it is definitely a taboo..

Every year, every April.

Shits gonna hit my face hard until I have to crawl back up from ground 0.

Those who know more about me, you'll know what happened in each Aprils..

This year, guess what?

A very close childhood friend of mine passed away.

:'( Franco Tan, may you rest in peace.. God Bless..

Leukemia. Sigh.. After around 6 years of war with cancer, he lost..

You will always be there.. Deep down in my memory..

Cycle together, throw stones and pebbles..

Chasing.. Tags.. Ice and Fire..

Gaming.. Red Faction (your favorite!)..

Gasing.. Tamya.. etc etc etc..

Miss you hell lots..

but it's impossible to turn time back..

A lesson to all, appreciate please...

Appreciate what you have now..

Even if things are like shits, put a smile on that cute face..

I know it's hard. Coz I am now in a shit pool struggling for breath.

but still, I can manage a smile..

*I hate it very much when I keep telling people to cheer up and yet.. I am the one who is sad like shit.

Well, guess what? I am seriously sad now..

Hmm.. Maybe it is a sign of a seriously good and happy thing coming up.. Yay!

Aunt bought tickets to kitaro this coming saturday..

Too bad I am not really in the mood for concerts..

Am rushing an assignment now.. Due in two weeks time.. but... the earlier the better.. So.... yeah.

ps. Hey Terence Tan.. Thing changes but life goes on.. Move on! Stay strong.. Slap your face.. Wake up.. Exams are not the end of the world and love aren't everything..

接下来漫长的路程..
不会再一个人度过..

感觉..
幸福..


Am in TCR aka Computer Lab now..
Forgot to bring along my pendrive so will not be posting any pictures..

Things are less smooth these few weeks..
Assignments start coming in, hard chapters as well..
And the worst thing, my old pal, insomnia X.x

Sleep at 2-3am everyday.. Always ended up with a pretty bad headache the next morning..
Which seriously ruined everything for that day..

One more thing is that.
Friends and social life here is getting better.. hopefully..
Know more people.. but i don't think i'm gonna be overly active..
One is to avoid unnecessary stress..
another is just to keep low profile..

had just played squash for the 1st time of my life!
Felt great! Squash is far more easier than tennis though.
Tennis are like pick up balls rather than hitting balls .__.

Hmm.. Nothing much to say for now..
will update again.. hopefully, soon..


Just to those who are interested in knowing what am I learning for now,

This is Structure and Materials 1. (one of the six modules)


Mohr's Circle
http://www.ecourses.ou.edu/cgi-bin/ebook.cgi?doc&topic=me&chap_sec=07.3&page=case_sol


ps. This is just the beginning..

University Lifestyle..

Am now back in Aunt's House in USJ.

Well, Uni life is pretty amazing.

Totally different from Primary and Secondary.

Lecturers don't give a damn to you even if you want to do shit in the class.

Lecture class is so big in numbers that people don't give a damn to other gangs.

Hmm.. What else..

Oh.. Somedays where you only have 2 classes for the whole day.. or even none.

Activities.. I mean seriously... TONS! of activities..

Table tennis ladder league.

Badminton Competition.

Singing audition.

K pop competition

Scrabble competitioin.

Shisha Party - wth?!

Clubbing night..

Kick boxing lessons..

Japanese / korea language class..

Etc etc etc..

For active people like me, I was like wahhhhhhhh... Nice!

But then you wont have time to join all of it for sure..

but then my friends.. or can say my "gang" are the less active type..

More on crouching at home reading books to get along with the weekend instead of running around in the campus socializing..

Before that..

My "gang"

a total of 6 person including me.

We are hmm.. Pretty evenly classified? Ahaha..

2 21 years old,

2 20 years old,

2 19 years old.

21 is because they did Stpm, then only come in for year one.

As for 20, both of them did UEC in Batu Pahat, Johor, same school.

These two are Godlike. Both very hardworking and talented @.@

While another 19 one is also from UEC, also Johor. But from Muar. and also, very hardworking and talented.

Seems like UEC is pretty strong..

But 3 of these friends of mine they have a serious problem though,

the syllabus for UEC in their school is in Chinese..

Which means even Chinese is used in the periodic table for Chemistry.. Full of yucky words..

Get my point? Yuckss... But they say our english one is Sooo yucky.. .__.

well to make things shorter,

My unit, living room..

Toilet

Bedroom and my study table
Bedroom
Closet? lol.
Foods that aunt brought me for my first day
Foods.
Maggie @.@ Sooo many.

New bottle

New bag
Ban Mee.. First Cafeteria food that i ate.. No pork = not that tasty..
Argh.. Sowie.. it fall off and i had to tie it back.. lost one piece.. .__.

Well i suppose that's it for now..

;]

ps. Things are different now..