Don't read this post of shit.

Today, in short..

Piece of shit.

Shits flying everywhere,

and most of them hit me.

16th of September..

A public holiday.

I was seriously looking forward to this day since Monday.

was gonna go movie with friends

Well..

Shit came one by one.

When i was about to leave my house at 11.30am.

I look at the drawer where we keep all of our keys and my car key was no where to be found.

I quickly ran for the door.

!@#$%^

my car was not there.

Now how am i going to go out without a car?

Called my parents.

And knew that they drove it out to service the car.

Well..

I somehow kinda raised my voice a bit because i was erm.. shocked and sad at the same time

as i have to break my promise =(

after that was disaster.

I sit in my living room. every car sound i heard, i stand up and glance through the window.

Nop. not my car.

that goes on for one hour.

That one hour was torturous.

Had my heart bleeding but no tears came out.

Promised to pick you up but i ended up sitting there. Useless.

My plan was to leave the house at 11.15.

So that i can grab your mentos along the way and reach you before 12.

but i thought of doing a small card.

that took me sometime.

mood was no where better than horrible once i noticed those shit that happened.

Waited until 12.15. my mum is back.

Jumped up the car and somehow raised my voice while talking to her.

Feeling pretty worried and condemned that time.

So basically i do not know what i was doing.

Mum tried to explain.

but i just left my house.

Drove 140km/h along the highway.

and when you told me not to come.

i just.....

so i fetched foo and we went for zhu mee fen in gaya street.

although i wasn't happy at all.

still forced a smile out to entertain my friends.

can see that he knew i wasn't in the mood as well.

meet kuit up at 1B cinema and watched Resident evil 3D.

Things ain't good when i reached home..

had a few lectures and argument with my parents.

Apologies though.

It was my bad at the first place.

It was all just some misunderstanding.

plus, that workers in the shop had some problems doing the car.

ended up late.

my parents are good enough to give me a car.

pay for my petrol.

Drove my car for service.

and what had i returned them?

I somehow scolded at them, voice raised actually.

some how think that they ruined everything.

thought they find excuse to prevent me from going out.

and also,

they did everything for me so that i can accompany my friends.

at the same time, lesser time with them.

and i only have a few months left in kk =(

Thanks also for mum, rush back home to pass the car to me.

and i still blame her for driving slow.

and the actual thing was that workshop did faulty job to my car and make things got shitty.

I'm sorry mum and dad.

Horribly sorry.

I still love you all.

It was just misunderstanding.

A childish kid with a childish mind.

If you were to make me choose between family and friends,

i will have to say.

sorry my friend.

for me, i can't live without friends.

i need them.

i need you all.

i need support.

or else i'll be boneless.

like a pile of shit.

don't misunderstand. i still appreciate everyone of you.

today's program,

i really did spent sometime thinking about it.

like how i wished it will turn out like that.

how sweet will it be if like this.

but seems like non of it came true.

well.

maybe sometimes we just can't think too much

thinking give you hope.

hope makes you dream

dream leads you to be obsessed.

and when you're overly obsessed with something.

shit happened.

later that.

my printer broke down.

my computer broke down.

everything.

on the same day.

=(

I think today should be the worst day for september 2010.

and could even be nominated as the worst for year 2010.

=(

A public holiday. =(

That's it i suppose.

the rest, i leave it for my diary. =(

答应了但没做到.

我真的非常抱歉.

只想告诉你,

我尽力了.

对不起.

错过了,

我非常后悔.

或许是命运吧. =(

真希望,

能紧紧地抱着你,

不放开.

带你,

到海边,

看着夕阳,

变成星星.

带你,

到永远,

到天堂.

还能容忍多久,

我不知道.

知道的是,

火山终有一天会爆发.

有人说我傻.

有人说我蠢.

为什么就不接受事实,

放弃一切?

都回了一致的答案.

因为我爱她.

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